thegoldendolphin

Perception: Don’t recognize myself/ unreasonable with fear.

Emotion: fear

Thoughts/Blame: frightened how you feel think needs a remedy, but no remedy; but punishment feared.

Afraid of: (being) punished, ostracized; misunderstood; that I don’t belong anywhere; that it’s not safe anywhere.

—> Proves that/Belief: These emotions are punishable. Or these emotions are mad and unreasonable.

Desire: To get rid off/suppress punishable emotions.

Internal inquiry (first I imagine myself with the belief and allow where, and how I feel, that pertains to that belief. )

—> with belief I saw myself upset on the lawn and frightened of the people inside the house.

(Keeping how I feel and where I am as is I then remove the belief; I erase it out.)

—> without the belief there was no one there, just the totality of my upset I could see clearly. I break down, accepting and crying of how I feel.

(Do I still want the desire? (The desire is cause))

—> I voluntarily release and let go the desire to get rid of/suppress emotions because my emotions are not punishable.

Without ’emotions are mad and unreasonable’ I could see congruity with (my own) idols, upholding them before God; and stopped and cried a surrender.

spring ’24