thegoldendolphin

Projection follows the decision to split – the belief that you can do that – that’s what projection is. when we look at it – a decision that you can make a division between yourself and yourself. so we believe ourselves as lacking, or the Self as lacking. Projection or decision to split, you could say is the same as rejecting the Self entirely. It comes through on one level that you’re rejecting certain elements of yourself, and that’s what’s beneficial to work with. When we feel apart from ourselves we certainly feel sick, but the psychology of not being able to get back to light, or not being able to get back to ourselves is synonymous with the simple decision to do that – with the decision to divide; place a division between yourself and yourself, subtract or eject what is not ‘fit for purpose’.

So right now I’m reminded of an internal work I did with substantial; returning to and note-taking. And seeing in the Mind, seeing in the Soul or the Heart that who I perceive myself to be – and it took the form of a person – who I think I am or I should be – near me or in a vicinity that exemplifies what I believe is lacking; and we’re both in the same vicinity or the same room; and the belief, that couples with the desire to place division, is ‘[the] [world/people/food etc] is cause’. And it could take the image of something particular that’s used – an image that’s nothing – but used as a catalyst to provide/foster a cause for this division, so you can utilize that cause, or incorporate it or remove it and then decide upon it or foster a division upon it. And whatever you think is cause melts away that belief whilst still picturing what I described and what happens is that the two melt and become one or one becomes the other, but usually becomes what I think I am not.

The essence of it that’s very particular is what is lacking or being discriminated against because ‘myself’ doesn’t warrant that, and doesn’t warrant that in any regard, even a conditional, social/classist level. So seeing this completion and wholeness; then there’s no ejection or decision to eject or split – that’s let go of. On that level it seems to be a decision to eject itself or love, it seems to be simply parts of ourself then in my inquiry it was illuminating to see that what I thought I was ejecting – which I wasn’t because that’s impossible – but what I thought I was ejecting that wasn’t fit for purpose was everything that was quite wonderful; secure. And this isn’t surprising, if we take it up or down – depending on how one thinks – then it’s the Self that’s whole and wonderful, which makes sense.

So there’s an asking there or an opportunity to feel how you feel and become aware of that presence that’s totally loving and accepting; and staying there, naturally judgement fades into a mist and settles into nothing. And the point of view is no longer a juxtaposition between judgement and yourself; there’s just the Self or yourself. And if you settle there you can see the subtle difference between judgement and how you feel. But following what I’ve said about the order of desire to belief to thought to perception – judgement would comprehensively follow the desire; so if there is voluntarily no desire there any more than any fervour with your emotions – it’s not the emotions – it’s not yourself and then judgement pulling you apart, and the confusion of that – there’s just the fervour of how you feel, and settling into that, into your completion. It’s not integrated, because there was never a division – it never occurred – there was never a division, it was never possible; but from that perspective, it comfortably feels like an integration. Comfortably feels like welcoming back that which was turned over onto its other side.

As a note, sometimes it’s hard to see the difference between – or when the decision/ our own desire to play out a fantastical division occurs – that maybe the thought that having too much emotion or being too much, or not being good enough – we’re at risk of that being synonymous to a division, so we eject. We think that would mean we’ve already projected so we project. But how you feel and who you and what you are – there’s nothing wrong with it, and you don’t have to worry about… – that maybe I’m missing a worded inclination there of how can I possibly be loved for all that I am? But you are. So the decision to project follows – in that experience follows that belief – in actuality, it’s the same time; the desire happens 1st – the belief immediately dissolves when you see the desire there.

One thing I’ve found is a caveat of continuing to eject regardless, is this belief that: how we feel/ what we are needs to be reconciled in this life, in this world, via the world, by the world. And the world in the frame of mind that’s congruous with thinking that there’s something wrong with oneself, is a fearful one, and a very unhelpful one, and a scathing one. What I say to this is how you feel does not need to be fixed or resolved, that how you feel doesn’t need to be fixed or resolved in this world. You just take it before the light that you are. The one light that you are. Take it before love. Feel it before love. Take it before the alter in you.

There may be a thought that uses the image of a tyrannical world in its proposition that this image of a world is a god-head, and that you feeling the total aspect of how you feel, of who you are, is just not okay or not accepted. But this is not a reiteration of love or reality this is a reiteration of the thought itself: of worthlessness, of division – and possibly it will hold up those images of experiences that point to division as if it were real, [point to] of authorities – that there is an authority; that there is something other than one Love or one Light or one God or one Will or One Self. And you are never good enough for this authority. One God is thankfully not an authority and doesn’t gauge your completion via the world.

The world, the tyrannical aspect, the authority – it’s all one thought pointing to an illusion, a falsehood – that that illusion is a presiding reality, – and it isn’t. And that too, that understanding bolsters more, it helps more seeing the validity of yourSelf; whatever it is you feel that is there, that you’re leaning into, that you want to feel and serve before your alter; this tyrannical thought that there’s something else, supplanting the idea of oneness, of a god – making an authority of it, making a deity of it – it’s not true. You can let it be there; – the more you have faith in your worth… And yes worth is conditional, but I use it unconditionally, without a diametric aspect to it. And this whole Self or worth; this understanding again can be bolstered by recognizing everyone you see – the divine in them is the one Self too; and this thought that pervades over in your thoughts, that tries to exemplify a division – the division is only with that illusion, it’s not caused or causing in reality or in anyone, truly.

Love doesn’t discriminate anything of the sensual representation. And I say this because, as I’d like for myself, I would say that Love wouldn’t hold me to what is transitional; what is temporary, and what is temporary is a sensory experience… of what is said, what is done, of that the body looks like, of what it seems to do and behave… – seems to because it’s not self-causing… – that what is true and real is actually regardless of any of it. And if I can hold myself in that regard I can hold my neighbour in that regard too. And doing this helps with unconditionally allowing myself and thus not projecting. Projecting and making ill.

The partnering thought to the experience of being unwell or ‘aggressively’ so is – that the ‘division is real’; and that the one self dreamt a division of itself, and the belief that the division is real. It’s nothingness; it seems persistent but, there is an awareness there – an invitation always – of recognizing that your source is one, and that there is nothing else: no idols, no other laws. And, in this moment the image I have is… – it’s a question, very much of the question on one level of deciding that I’m going to place division or I’m going to eject the self… are you going to do that or are you going to accept not only is not possible but it’s not true? Recognizing ultimate provision from the one light that you are – that you are of and are – and recognizing the nothingness of anything that seems to be ephemeral or finite; so there are levels of experience, and how we can get to and enter these understandings/this understanding.

I’ve written more about acknowledging the oneself, as seeing yourself as the oneself as a level playing field too, and what might be inhibiting that [seeing that] or what can help release that [inhibition]; what can help you see the equality in the Self. And also from one perspective, from the dreamer of the dream perspective how a past is meaningless from simply a oneself perspective a past…. I’ll do that in another recording.

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