thegoldendolphin

—-> Not to judge my provision-making made because I feel fear.

—>This should soften the apparent ‘getting-away-from-me’ decision-making to divide.

—–>Division is just for the illusion that I can divide.

—->The thought that I have power; that it should extend or there isn’t anywhere to extend it into is actually a veil over thinking that ‘there’s still a threat present’, threatening me for just being myself. If there’s no threat present then I’m free to consider what I’d like to do, and how to do it. The threat being – ‘that I need to do something regardless of myself’, which isn’t power.

—>Threat, I’ve ascertained is – that I don’t feel myself, which would mean I’ve already made the decision to divide.

—>So this comes back to forgiving fear amongst other emotion.

—->The only reason I would say I fear an outside problem is because I’m not present to meet it. Hence the threat is only that I feel divided against myself.

—->Feeling emotions and not confusing them with a cause.

—->That I don’t know whether I want to do something is just that. Guilt comes in reaction to appease a threat – but we’ve ascertained that the only threat is that I don’t feel myself.—> So I’m guilty for being divided against myself, which makes no sense because the guilt proceeds the decision.

—>On guiltlessness ‘being a threat’ —> the only threat is not being myself. Guiltlessness is completion, thus: being myself – thus it is not a threat.

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