thegoldendolphin

Summary Overview:–

The image of debt and separate self are the same. Guilt supplants the voice of love – it is congruous with judgement/self-judgement. Love is not an authority nor is it cruel; this illusion calling itself love advocates that to see as whole, to see with grace is contrary to reality and truth; it insists on holding onto exclusivity and fragmentation; I recall self-inquiry into trauma here: the block between accepting equality when traumatized is not knowing how to reconcile such different orders of perception – particularly how others seem to much more ‘attacking’.

Trauma proclaims attack is true and healing is found in further separation, yet it contests equality – this is why mental health healing processes can be so confusing: that to heal from trauma requires one to hold onto trauma, to time; to separation.

If all is equal, however, then I will address the elephant in the room: that I have engaged in attack thoughts – they may not have been in my experience with other figures but certainly with giving the perspective, here, a hard time. I cannot place healing and equality together if I hypocritically defend my own inferiority and justification to be attacked.

This precept is illogical of course. If we are One Self then we must be dreaming multiplicity; the key to the perceived block of trauma or defending trauma is equality, because then one sees their completion where it is, where the self is, behind the multiple imagery. The trauma was never what the thoughts argued it was – if you look closely you’ll see that this exclusive trauma blames one for the trauma – it is an unhelpful precept. The trauma was never a problem exclusive from the whole – the trauma was always believing that we are exclusive from the whole.

The belief that division is real is the trauma we all share as one self. Because there may be so many beliefs then it is harmony to approach ourselves from different levels. That’s why it’s loving not to discriminate ourselves when it seems we coming from different approaches; or writing or speaking from different perspectives.

Intuitively approaching individual trauma is helpful if it leads to equality – if it undoes inequality and false thoughts of separation. Simply being yourself facilitates this. It is not, however, helpful to place cause ultimately in the world for trauma. This is counterproductive; because what advocates the world as cause advocates attack as real, and so division must be real, which is the trauma. That’s why so many of us carry ‘victim shame’; that to be traumatized one must further and continue the ground-work for trauma as punishment by avoiding/condemning certain people, places things, and thoughts, and mitigating certain people, places, things and thoughts to uphold their ‘self-respect’ that they’re now obligated to ‘earn’. This is what exclusive trauma rallies behind. Certainly, this is counter-productive.

To summarize, is to recognize equality or your dreamed, division perspective. You never deserved attack. There is only one self that cannot attack, attack being the dream. When you recognize equality as yourself as all the perceived divisions – this is an eternal moment where time, judgement, debt and guilt is cancelled or not seen anymore.

One self does not mean clustering many together. There aren’t many. There is only oneself dreaming a division, attack being the dream.

The light has come. The light was always here.

Transcript of video: –In prayer, I asked the question “why have I gone through so much hell?” And in prayer, I can only be answered if I am what I am speaking to. The words ‘the light has come, I have forgiven the world’ came to me, and I repeated them, for they are effective at clearing the illusion of debt, the illusion of… debt. The world and the image of the self being the same, the image of debt; the image of the self being the same.

I continued this thread in the garden, about how helpful those words are. And the train of thought I came upon was a revisitation of how illusion supplants the voice of love and calls itself love, yet with an authority – totalitarian, cruel; separate. To mistake – to believe – this of love, to see a veil before love channels back to self-judgement, because self-judgement inevitably leads to projection – to nowhere, – but to thoughts and images of a world; people; situations. But love was never blind, or an authority, or cruel. I say this because I know what it’s like to be obfuscated by an illusion: one that calls itself real;- and believe it.

This illusion advocates debt, guilt; exception; it advocates that to forgive – to see as whole; to see beyond separation – is contrary to reality. It argues contrarily. And my train of thought – I found myself upon revisiting an inquiry: due to how illusion insists on the obligation to unforgiveness, to holding exclusivity, to holding on to guilt – it put me onto the inquiry regarding the perceived exclusivity of trauma and the One Self.

What I uncovered that was helpful regarding a perceived block when it comes to accepting, or seeing; forgiving; accepting equality, is the thought that ‘others are so much more attacking than I am, I can’t reconcile this’. What equals the playing field is to look at what one may be overlooking. If all being equal, which proclaims the experience of a one self and is ironically the martyred cries of trauma, and that if we look at it from the level of responsibility; people: then I have engaged in attack thoughts. If all being equal, including me, then I’m equally responsible for attacking someone as much as ‘I’ would blame someone else for attacking someone or me…I’m equally responsible for attacking me.

When we visit this precept of thought we can see how illogical it is – how contradictory. If we are One Self as I have experienced myself to be, then as a One Self we are experiencing a dream of variables; a dream of division. The key, here, to this perceived block of trauma; defending trauma, is equality. Because when you see your equality, your equality – equal divisions of the One Self… perceived divisions – all the One Self, – then this is what – may be surprisingly – resolves [heals] the trauma, or helps us be aware of it – of where it is. That the trauma was never what the perceived, exclusive trauma contested it was. The perceived, exclusive trauma actually fought for its own suffering because the trauma was never exclusive from the whole – the trauma was believing you were exclusive from the whole. (and senses dutifully fulfil that for you) All being equal – a One self – that is – all being equal: – the trauma is the same trauma in everyone…in the One Self: the belief that the separation is real; the belief that the division is real.

The key is equality; because we may perceive ourselves or look over our own conceded inferiority and contest our equality, because we’re not as attacking. But we must be testifying to our inferiority if we believe self-harm is acceptable for us only… it all ties into one another because there are so many levels to get there – so many levels of experience. One level can advocate that trauma originates exclusively to a person within their own life. All things can be helpful; and a way that this is helpful is if it leads to inquiry, if it leads to seeing through thought systems; seeing through inequality.

But to insist trauma is caused here – that the root of trauma is caused here in this world is counter-productive because it inadvertently insists… is giving a cause to the separation, – furthering the illusion, or furthering believing an illusion that there’s reason to be afraid. Listening to this authoritative self-judgement, one must obligate themselves around reasons to be afraid.

I’ll summarise with two points – the first being: is to recognize your equality – or your dreamed division perspective: that you never deserved it either – you never deserved attack either. Second point: is to recognize the one Self, – that there is only one trauma. When you recognize your equality – as yourself and all the perceived divisions – it’s harmony and gladdening because it cancels the division, it cancels out the debt, the past, time, illusions; judgement. It’s very welcome. That we all share the same trauma. Because we’re all one, not many clustered together forcibly changing our sight to believe that. There aren’t many – there is only one Self dreaming a division. The light has come. The light has was always here.