thegoldendolphin

I recorded the following whilst I held a wren in my hand.

She was stumbling around with a head injury – kept turning around. I took her up to the pasture where I thought she’d like it most. Upset by her enduring distress, I held her there in my hands for a long while not knowing what to do. She fought furiously to balance, but could not.

Other birds in the hedges flitted about… I wondered if she knew them. I propped her comfortably in my palm, and prayed what do I need to know? She wouldn’t pass – there was something I needed to know here.

I went above the earth just where the sky meets the void, and gazed upon the sun. I loosed every heavy chain and watched them drop to the planet; one of the chains included that I was abandoning love by conceding the world offered nothing.

The thought of a previous inquiry came to me. I settled particularly upon the words: they never hurt me.

I opened my eyes and looked down at the baby wren. She had died looking up at the sky.

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“Attachment to anything, even the attachment to needing to help or to extend oneself is still attached to an illusion or still attached to separation. Because the desire to help – there to be a formative desire; concept of helping; concept of being useful – it still includes the idea that there is more than One.

“This is why it can seem like a really heavy attachment pulling counterintuitively yourself apart. If we let go of this world – see that there is nothing in it that we want – we can let go too this desire to help because it’s a conceptual idea of illusion. It’s a considered idea congruous to time or congruous to perceptive lack or perceptive division.

“So we can let that go, and instead allow intuitively if anything at all that needs to come through our bodily representation; and we needn’t determine it as anything. It’s diametric opposites, the duality of words are attaching… So we can let go the idea of helping, or being a useful function or purpose; and let that unconditionally unfold instead, so…

“That’s a heavy chain. But if you look closely at it and let it go, you’re really letting go of always the same thing: separation; division; there being something other than oneself.

“Attachment or concern about others or suffering or death is still congruous with the idea that what you’re perceiving is a literal testimony of there being more than one, instead of forgiving it as perceptive division – causeless division…and coming back to forgiving sensual perception – forgiving it, looking past it, and not being tempted by it… But understanding the love that you endeavour is justified – but it’s not to something that’s separate from you – it’s always to what’s one with you. So there’s no risk of being without it or the regret of not making it a part of you.”